I was lingering in the lobby, unable to check-in to my room, when I met this little ray of sunshine. Kattie is one of the nicest people I've met. Even though I met women over Facebook, I went there by myself, not really knowing anyone. But Kattie was welcoming! We had some lunch at Qdoba and then went over to EAC, our home for the next day. EAC is an awesome gym! I wish I belonged there (the 9 hour drive from home is just a minor detail).
I went to the hotel and passed out.
Then there was Posing with Erica and Barbara. I was one of two outliers who had no foreseeable plans to compete. So what the heck was I doing in a posing class? Like I told the session attendees, I just want to take better Instagram photos (and that got a laugh)! Of course, I had on loose fitting clothes which was not really ideal but I dealt with it (though I did feel frumpy). Erica is a 2x champ, Barbara competes in the NPC and other women were planning to compete. And then there's me. I was not feeling too awesome going into this. Erica or Barbara would show us what to do then we would practice it. I practiced breathing, walking, and posing and I did okay. I joked that walking would come in handy for my IG videos. During my stage walk, I kept my chest down and at one point Erica said something like "You don't wanna show how awesome you are." Did you hear the sound of screeching brakes? because I did. My site is Wannabe Awesome Me so I have to try to be awesome! So chest up! Then when I was practicing a back pose, Erica mentioned that I have great calves and so did my partner, Ana. Now that may seem like a silly thing--calves. Maybe it is, but...I went from feeling frumpy and inferior to feeling awesome! A 2x bikini champ thought a part of me looked great. And that's when it hit me----yes, I've gained weight and it sucks and I need to get it off and maybe my abs will never be where I want them. But, I have some pretty awesome things about me, like my calves :). I walked a bit taller after posing class. Even as I thought about it on the plane ride home, I wanted to cry because it was such an overwhelming feeling. Because of Camp GORGO, I expanded #mytribe, I focused on my fitness, and most importantly, I felt stronger, empowered, and good about myself. And #thatssogorgo.